*Knocking noise heard at the door* Hello? Is anyone here? I know it's been awhile since I've been here but hey better late then never... right?
I've been meaning to come and write my thoughts down for awhile. But I was struggling with what to write and more importantly do I even have my thoughts together to form a coherent sentence that others would want to read. I have been doing a lot of reflecting on my life lately. More specifically on the last 2 years of my life. I have written blogs in the past about how I have embraced the woman that I am. I have written about my hopes for my future, what my dreams are and I have written a lot about patience. Which is probably good because I need some sort of constant reminder. But this time, this post isn't about waiting and hoping. No, this post is about how God came through. I always knew he would, but this is the story about how a young woman trusted in her Lord and Savior so hard that she finally saw that bright neon arrow pointing towards her future.
Around December of this year I started feeling like Rapunzel. I felt stuck in my tower and constantly wondering when my life would begin. I felt like I was always on the brink of finding something out or discovering what I wanted to do. I felt like Belle. Craving adventure in the big wide somewhere. I had decided I wanted out of my "tower and provincial town" I wanted to feel the grass, the water and see the floating lights. I wanted to experience things I had only read about in books. I started thinking about all sorts of options to achieve my craving for adventure. While on a Christmas Disney Cruise, I even toyed around with the idea of joining Jack Sparrow on the seven seas and living the pirate's life. But then another idea hit me. Why don't I go back to school.
I had been keeping the idea of Grad School at bay the past year. I mean come on after 16 years of straight school, homework, classes, group projects and navigating the social schemas I was ready to be done. However, I started to feel a nudge. Maybe I should investigate grad school possibilities. And I did. And of course I did vast research, bought many reference guides, talked to many people and did many internet searches... Ha! No I didn't. Instead I did one google search. I searched for: Grad schools located close to Disney World. (As my previous post points out I have Disney magic running in my veins and I know that the only way to make that dream come true is to just go to Orlando)
And that is how I found the school that I would end up applying to. I wish I could say that once I applied to the school, applied for an assistantship and then took my GRE that it was smooth sailing. But, that wasn't to be. God likes to teach me patience frequently. I think he knows I need it so he likes to give me constant lessons. I applied in January. Toured the school in February. Took my GRE in early March. I was officially accepted into the school in late March but was wait listed for an assistantship. At this point I had almost decided against going to grad school. I had even began looking at other jobs. I knew that in order to go to Florida I was going to need an assistantship. I had started thinking that grad school wasn't God's plan for me. But then Mid April happened. I woke up early on a Thursday morning to an email from the school. Apparently I was being given an assistantship in the program. BUT that wasn't all. I was also offered a fellowship. My jaw dropped! I was not expecting this at all. I was starting to come up with substitute plans for my life. But instead God was showing me patience. This was an even better offer than I was expecting.
Soon all the blocks began falling into place. I got a room in the apartment complex I loved when I toured in February, I got into all the classes I wanted to take in the fall, one of my best friends had decided to come on the adventure with me (and got a room in the same apartment building) and today I just found out I won a drawing for 2 free passes to Universal Studios Orlando. Now I know God is amazing but seriously I have never felt more blessed than I have these past couple months. He keeps showing me that he is faithful and has my life under control.
The night before I was to wake up to that fateful email from the University, I remember laying in bed and just praying over and over that God would reveal my next path. I was craving adventure and wanted God to show me my path. Little did I know that he was going to provide me with a bright neon arrow flashing toward Florida.
So here's the message in all of this. Trust God. It may seem like He's taking His time but just know He has it all under control. He knows what's coming and knows when you are ready to take on something new. He's got it. I am a very Type A personality. I love to plan and I love to know my future. But this past year God really worked on me to trust in him. And I honestly believe that Him putting a craving for adventure on my heart these past few months began to prepare me for what he had in store. My going back to school states away from my family and familiarity. God provided. He always does. Please reader... NEVER forget that or take that for granted. God has a plan. It may seem like He's forgotten and left you in the lurch... but that isn't true. He's just waiting for the right time. He loves you. He wants what's best for you. Trust in Him to make a move in you.
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